a place I didn’t want to go

Now I lay me down to sleep,
I pray thee, Lord, my soul to keep.
See me safely through the night and
wake me with the morning light.

As a little girl, one of my early memories of praying was kneeling beside my bed {and yes, that is the very picture that hung above my bed!} every night with either Mom or Dad right by my side and saying the words of the little prayer above, and then Mom and Dad would then lead me to pray from my little heart.  And as my own kids came along, I shared this same experience with them.  These memories flooded my heart a few days ago as I turned the page in my Prayers for Prodigals.  The title of the next prayer read “If I Should Die before She {He} Wakes (I pray the Lord her {his} soul to take)” brought me to a place I didn’t want to go.  But Faith said – “go”. . .

“Father, I want so much to see my {son} come {back} to you.  But what if it takes longer than my lifetime?”

yes, I know Lord, this is going to be a war and it’s not going to be easy.  I know it’s all in Your time.  The stronghold the enemy has on my Prodigal is on the move. I keep saying to myself, “you can run, but you can’t hide.”  No, I know we can never hide from our Abba Father.

“I will still live by faith and welcome Your answer to my prayers from a distance . . . Because You hold our prayers in Your heart, You can even add years to them that exceed our lives on earth.  I come to You in faith for my precious {Son}.
Even if {he} doesn’t come {back} to You during my time on earth, I praise You that You will still be at work to answer my prayers for {his redemption and  restoration }.
How I long to see {his} soul awaken to You. To life abundant!
Call {him} out of sin’s deadly payback, into the kindness You have ‘prepared for those who love’ you.
If I should die before {he} wakes, let me be standing near when You say to {him} in Heaven, ‘Well done, good and faithful servant … Oh may {his} life be lived for the praise of your Glory.”

. . . the reality of the how the enemy wants to disrupt and diminish my prayers brought me in faith to read these words, to pray these words for my own Prodigal.  I offer these words in faith, with hope and love.

“All these people were still living by faith when they died.  They did not receive the things promised; they only saw them and welcomed them from a distance.”
Hebrews 11:13

About beegee10

I am a follower of Jesus on the journey of discovering His real, lasting joy through God's grace and thanksgiving. Several years ago, I married my best friend, whom I met in kindergarten many years ago. Life choices took each of us on separate paths, but Divine Appointment brought our paths back together. It's exciting to share this journey with my sweet man - a man who loves God more than he loves me! What a gift!! As a young woman I prayed for God to send a godly man like my daddy to pursue me. I just wasn't listening and abiding when I should have been. Good news in HIS time and in HIS grace, HE did! Not only does my sweet man love me, but he loves my three grown kids as if they were his own. He shares their joys and he hurts when they hurt. I love to hear him pray for each of them daily as we begin and end our days. View all posts by beegee10

One response to “a place I didn’t want to go

  • Laura

    Cute lil prayer picture you had in room growing up. And I’m sure all the family will keep trying to help him as long as it takes. 🙂

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