walking through the seasons of life, i have found myself on mountaintops, in deep valleys, by rushing streams of rushing water, in the desert. no matter the season, no matter the trial, no matter the victory – i’ve never been alone.
during a particularly dark season, in what now seems like another life, long ago, i often felt alone. i was living a life that was in shambles. it seemed as if everything was in turmoil – lives were falling apart, including my own, lines were drawn. it often took all my energy to keep up the facade of “the happy life” to the outside world. many days i would ask God – what else can happen, how much more hurt can i endure? the days, the months, added up to years in the desert.
i felt alone. i felt abandoned. i felt betrayed. i felt darkness surrounding me. i was beginning to believe the lies satan kept whispering in my ear. i wasn’t as strong as i thought i was. i wasn’t worthy.
my only hope was to turn to the one place i knew that i would find truth – The Word. i found a note that i had written several years before in the pages of my Bible, a little verse from Isaiah. i knew i was not alone, even in the desert.
Look, I am about to do something new; even now it is coming. Do you not see it? Indeed, I will make a way in the wilderness, rivers in the desert. – Isaiah 43:19
now as i look back, i see HE brought me out of the desert, HE brought me to a new life.
HE is my victory and HE was always with me!
click to listen – “Desert Song” ~ Hillsong
This is my prayer in the desert
When all that’s within me feels dry
This is my prayer in my hunger and need
My God is a God who provides
And this is my prayer in the fire
In weakness or trial or pain
There is a faith proved
Of more worth than gold
So refine me Lord through the flames
And I will bring praise
I will bring praise
No weapon formed against me shall remain
I will rejoice
I will declare
God is my victory and He is here
And this is my prayer in the battle
When triumph is still on it’s way
I am a conqueror and co-heir with Christ
So firm on His promise I’ll stand
All of my life
In every season
You are still God
I have a reason to sing
I have a reason to worship
This is my prayer in the harvest
When favor and providence flow
I know I’m filled to be emptied again
The seed I’ve received I will sow