manage or surrender?

 

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in my mind i know that God is all-knowing – omniscient.  i know He is always present – omnipresent.  i know he is all-powerful – omnipotent.

so why is it that when things happen in life, when the difficulties come, when the storms rise up . . .  we call out, “God, are you asleep?”  living by faith is not easy.  it’s not like there is this on/off switch that i can flip on and flip off as i think i need it.  just like during the storm in Mark 4, the disciples were afraid, they were terrified – – there are times when i am afraid, i am terrified.  it’s time to raise my faith level.

fear and faith – are tied together.  do i let this fear shut down my faith OR do i allow this fear to move my faith?  

do i manage my life  OR do i surrender my life?

 

manage – i think i’ve got the answers.  i think i know how things should be, how they should play out.  how many times in life i have tried to manage.  manage my life and the lives of others.  i put up walls instead of acknowledging that fear.  i allowed that wall to get higher and higher.  why?  that wall shuts out the fear  –  the fears of the storms, the difficulties, the unknown, the hurts, the betrayals.  i put that wall up to help me from feeling that way again.  i didn’t allow Jesus to be anything for me.  i didn’t allow Him to be my Everything.  i was believing the lies of satan.  satan, the enemy – – the one who comes to deceive and destroy.  what a waste of precious time.

 

surrender – during such a time, i knew i could not, i should not manage my life.  a time when i knew that He, the One whom i have known since i was a very young girl, was breaking me.  breaking me to surrender what seemed like a hopeless situation.  breaking me for restoration, for redemption.  breaking me free of the lies that were being whispered into my mind and my heart.  breaking the wall down that i had so strategically built around myself.  it was time to come home.  it was time to surrender.  it was time to really know who my Jesus is and who i am in Christ.

the storms of life aren’t going to stop.  the walk of faith is not easy.  do i still try to manage? yes, sometimes i do still find myself wanting Jesus to manage me from the outside in, but the more i know Him, the more He calms me from the inside out.

i surrender – daily.

About beegee10

I am a follower of Jesus on the journey of discovering His real, lasting joy through God's grace and thanksgiving. Several years ago, I married my best friend, whom I met in kindergarten many years ago. Life choices took each of us on separate paths, but Divine Appointment brought our paths back together. It's exciting to share this journey with my sweet man - a man who loves God more than he loves me! What a gift!! As a young woman I prayed for God to send a godly man like my daddy to pursue me. I just wasn't listening and abiding when I should have been. Good news in HIS time and in HIS grace, HE did! Not only does my sweet man love me, but he loves my three grown kids as if they were his own. He shares their joys and he hurts when they hurt. I love to hear him pray for each of them daily as we begin and end our days. View all posts by beegee10

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