grace in my shadow side

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it has been a long-time in coming.  i have allowed others to help me keep  parts of my whole life story in the shadows, at least in the shadows as far as the outward appearances.  or so i thought.  being part of various groups through the years of being involved in church, in Bible studies, in prayer groups, i found myself only “sharing” those light side problems – those ones i thought “acceptable” to those around me.  

little did i realize that denying these dark sides publicly also would help me deny them in my private times as well.  how sad i robbed myself of times of truly knowing God’s Grace and what it means for me.  

it took years.  times of tribulations – some my own, some of those close to me – for me to realize God has it all covered. His hand is on me at all times, not just when i feel i’m deserving.  He never leaves me.  He is always close.

 Graceundeserved because of the shadows. Grace – unearned because of the light side.

Grace – Charis – because He loves me and He delights to be with me!


About beegee10

I am a follower of Jesus on the journey of discovering His real, lasting joy through God's grace and thanksgiving. Several years ago, I married my best friend, whom I met in kindergarten many years ago. Life choices took each of us on separate paths, but Divine Appointment brought our paths back together. It's exciting to share this journey with my sweet man - a man who loves God more than he loves me! What a gift!! As a young woman I prayed for God to send a godly man like my daddy to pursue me. I just wasn't listening and abiding when I should have been. Good news in HIS time and in HIS grace, HE did! Not only does my sweet man love me, but he loves my three grown kids as if they were his own. He shares their joys and he hurts when they hurt. I love to hear him pray for each of them daily as we begin and end our days. View all posts by beegee10

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