it has been a long-time in coming. i have allowed others to help me keep parts of my whole life story in the shadows, at least in the shadows as far as the outward appearances. or so i thought. being part of various groups through the years of being involved in church, in Bible studies, in prayer groups, i found myself only “sharing” those light side problems – those ones i thought “acceptable” to those around me.
little did i realize that denying these dark sides publicly also would help me deny them in my private times as well. how sad i robbed myself of times of truly knowing God’s Grace and what it means for me.
it took years. times of tribulations – some my own, some of those close to me – for me to realize God has it all covered. His hand is on me at all times, not just when i feel i’m deserving. He never leaves me. He is always close.
Grace – undeserved because of the shadows. Grace – unearned because of the light side.
Grace – Charis – because He loves me and He delights to be with me!