Ever feel that way? Ever find yourself crying out, “GOD IS NOWHERE!”?
The conversation that goes on in my head can typically sound sort of like this . . .
Obviously HE is not here, just look at what’s going on around me! If God were right here with me, surely I wouldn’t feel so alone, and all these problems coming at me from all directions, drowning my life, would certainly go away. And those people . . . listen to what I hear them saying about me! Look how they’re ignoring me. God is no where around me. He has deserted me. I’m not valued by others, so obviously God sees me that same way.
God built us with a deep need for relationships. So many times, we find ourselves relying on others, depending on other people to give us our value and our worth. We look for another person, other people to be all things for us hoping to win their approval, meeting their expectations. Problem is, we can’t be all things to all people. Opinions from people are typically either subjective, emotional, inconsistent, or any combination of all 3. Trusting and relying on these opinions, and throwing in them with our own perceived notions about our identity and worth is a formula to make us insecure. It’s a vicious cycle we throw ourselves into, throwing life out-of-order.
And no matter how good or positive any relationship or activity appears to be, if it takes priority over my intimacy with God I set myself up for a life on the spinning wheel in the hamster’s cage. Putting people, even our circumstances, ahead of the One who created us for a deep relationship, deprives us of sharing in His Ultimate Intimate Relationship .
When I let pleasing people become my priority, and when I put their opinions first, I ultimately end up feeling even more insecure. Insecure in who I really am. I lose my sense of worth of who I am in Christ and I end up isolating myself from people and from the intimacy with the One who truly desires me.
Just read Psalm 139 and know that no one – not one person, not one group of people – is qualified to give us our identity.
No one except THE ONE who created you . . . THE only ONE who truly knows you and your heart.
So look again . . . GOD IS NOW HERE!