A few nights ago my sweet man was working on some video stuff and downloading music. When I heard this new song, Wide as the Sky, by Matt Redman, my memory took me back a number of years ago . . . to a time that I had buried deep in my heart.
. . . There was something holding me back from opening up myself to worship . . . I mean . . . Real Worship.
I’ve always loved singing [in and out of church], but I would watch vicariously as others would open themselves up to unashamed real worship. And then one day, it happened. It was a rare occurrence, the three of us – my middle son, my daughter and me – sitting all together at the late worship service. Admittedly, I was in the throes of walking through a dark season in my life.
Life was falling apart.
As the 11:11 worship band was playing [sadly I can’t remember what the song was], my eyes were fixed straight ahead. But to each side of me, I saw the hands of a son and daughter raising up. It was in that moment, I no longer felt the constraints holding me back.
Life was falling apart. And my hands were reaching up, so my heart could begin to open up.
I did not know where this battle in the dark season would take me. As alone as I may have felt, I knew I was not walking it alone.
Looking back over the last 10 plus years since that day, I know . . . Never once did I walk alone.
CLICK TO LISTEN: NEVER ONCE by Matt Redman