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walking forward

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Trials are in our lives.  They are around us, everywhere.  In the lives of family. Friends. co-workers. Neighbors. Strangers.  It may be a difficult job situation that seems to suck the life out of you, a health issue that robs one of a “normal” life, infertility for a precious young couple, a divisive person that seems to have put a target on your back, understanding how one can turn his back on Truth, the loss of a spouse, financial difficulties . . . the list seems endless.

Trials bring tears.  Tears are ok.  God sees the tears.  He feels them.  He wipes them away.  It’s knowing that there will be times of tears, of heartache, of not understanding, of fear, that help me understand that I can either let a season of trial make me stop, turn around, and walk {sometimes, run} backwards – away from Him.  OR I  can choose . . .

I can choose to walk forward, even in the tears.  It is possible to cry and walk at the same time.

I used to get so frustrated, it seemed my life was just one continual cycle of one trial after another.  To make it even more difficult to deal with, I felt that many of these trials weren’t because of my own doing.  iI was just merely caught in the whirlwind, the whirlwind of someone else’s choices.  I found myself in the fall out of  someone else’s disaster.  Little did I realize that time these times of trials (be it my own, or someone else’s) were part of breaking me, part of bringing me back into obedience.  I used to think, “but God, I heard You, iIm obeying You.  I said iI was, so it must be true!

That kind of obedience isn’t just a one-time thing. It often requires me having to make the same choice over and over again . . . days . . . weeks . . . months . . . even years.

My journey to obedience has all kinds of obstacles in it.  Obstacles that want to distract me.  oObstacles that want to persuade me to change my mind.  Obstacles that want to discourage me.   Obstacles that want to make me feel defeated.  Often, I would make the right decision once, but then couldn’t hang on for the rest of the journey.  I was missing the sustained, the abiding obedience that is needed, not the willpower I thought would get me through the “endless cycle.”

What I needed was commitment.  Not commitment to my own strength and endurance, but commitment to the One who sees my tears, who feels my tears, who knows EVERYTHING there is to know about me.

I needed to make a life change.

And the journey continues, because of His Grace I continue to learn to walk forward in the adversity as I daily seek sustained, abiding obedience. 

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