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living in the dusk


Ephesians 5:6-14

Let no one deceive you with empty words, for because of these things the wrath of God comes upon the sons of disobedience. Therefore do not become partners with them; for at one time you were darkness, but now you are light in the Lord. Walk as children of light (for the fruit of light is found in all that is good and right and true),  and try to discern what is pleasing to the Lord.  Take no part in the unfruitful works of darkness, but instead expose them.  For it is shameful even to speak of the things that they do in secret.  But when anything is exposed by the light, it becomes visible, for anything that becomes visible is light. Therefore it says,

“Awake, O sleeper,
    and arise from the dead,
and Christ will shine on you.”

One of my favorite things to do is to sit and watch a sunset.  Watching as the bright of day closes and darkness is waiting on the peripheral . . . waiting to snuff out the light.  Dusk, that moment in time of partial darkness between day and night. 

It’s a moment in time I want to briefly stop and appreciate His handiwork in the sky, but dusk is not a place I want to live in, but it seems to be a place I can wander in.  It’s not that place of Light, and it’s not that place of Dark.  

Dusk, where the shadows provide
                places to hide.
to escape.
                to avoid.
to divide.
                to decay.

Dusk is that place where the empty words of my enemy wants to woo me back into Darkness.

Words that want to come back to haunt me.

You are not loved.  You are not valued.
You are not worthy.  You are not pleasing.
You can’t do anything right.   Guilty.

Those are empty words, fruitless works of darkness.  E.M.P.T.Y.

I have to take those things of the darkness and expose them to the Light.  His Light.  Jesus changes who I am.

My life in the Light is full.

My life in the darkness is empty.

Living in the dusk is simply waiting for the darkness to come.  It will steal the Light away.

Are you living in dusk?



the palms of His hands


What a great reminder this quote was the other day when I ran across it.  This summer I was blessed to be part of a women’s Bible study time focusing on True Identity – knowing who I am in Christ.

And knowing the more I agree with God about my identity, the more my life will reflect Him.  The more I wholeheartedly live in my True Identity, the less opportunity I give the enemy to steal my Identity away from me.  

So when the accuser whispers out the lies he crafts to deceive my heart~

You’re not good enough, you’re not loved, you’re not respected, you have no real purpose

Just look at them – their life is much more exciting, they have more than you, they’re so much better than you.

Really. . . you can’t compete with her!   You’re not pretty enough, or skinny enough, or talented enough, or smart enough .

And you call yourself spiritual? – God doesn’t care about you.

You’re a bad mother, a lacking wife, a disappointment – you have no legacy. 

Remember that time you ______ (fill in the blank with any sin).  You think He’d forgive you for that??? You’ll never change. 

. . .  and as you know with lies, there is truth mixed in with the deceit.

I don’t have to live in that place of failure, of defeat, of deceit.  Because I was worth dying for!  And His word tells us that there is now therefore no condemnation in Christ Jesus (Romans 8:1).

My Abba Father calls my name, Daughter.  I am love unconditionally, and I am redeemed by His blood, and am no longer a failure.

The Truth is found in the palms of the One who died for me.

The Truth lives in my heart.  And my life is in the palms of His Hands.

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See, I have inscribed you on the palms of My hands;
Your walls are continually before Me.
Isaiah 49:16 



Ever feel that way?  Ever find yourself crying out, “GOD IS NOWHERE!”?

The conversation that goes on in my head can typically sound sort of like this . . .
Obviously HE is not here, just look at what’s going on around me!  If God were right here with me, surely I wouldn’t feel so alone, and all these problems coming at me from all directions, drowning my life, would certainly go away.  And those people . . . listen to what I hear them saying about me! Look how they’re ignoring me.  God is no where around me.  He has deserted me.  I’m not valued by others, so obviously God sees me that same way. 

God built us with a deep need for relationships.  So many times, we find ourselves relying on others, depending on other people to give us our value and our worth. We look for another person, other people to be all things for us hoping to win their approval, meeting their expectations.  Problem is, we can’t be all things to all people. Opinions from people are typically either subjective, emotional, inconsistent, or any combination of all 3. Trusting and relying on these opinions, and throwing in them with our own perceived notions about our identity and worth is a formula to make us insecure.   It’s a vicious cycle we throw ourselves into, throwing life out-of-order. 

And no matter how good or positive any relationship or activity appears to be, if it takes priority over my intimacy with God I set myself up for a life on the spinning wheel in the hamster’s cage.  Putting people, even our circumstances, ahead of the One who created us for a deep relationship, deprives us of sharing in His Ultimate Intimate Relationship .

When I let pleasing people become my priority, and when I put their opinions first, I ultimately end up feeling even more insecure. Insecure in who I really am.  I lose my sense of worth of who I am in Christ and I end up isolating myself from people and from the intimacy with the One who truly desires me.

Just read Psalm 139 and know that no onenot one person, not one group of peopleis qualified to give us our identity.

No one except THE ONE who created you . . . THE only ONE who truly knows you and your heart.

So look again . . .  GOD IS NOW HERE!



know your enemy

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Was at a lunch earlier this week after meeting for a Bible study called Identity Thief (written by Laurie Dodds).  There was the usual conversations about the kids, summer vacations, the hot temperatures here in Texas.  But it didn’t take too long for our talk to turn back to the day’s topic of our study ~ “Strategies of the Thief”  ~ with lots of talk of how the topic of our enemy seems to often elude many of the pulpits, and amazingly many of us grew up knowing about the devil but not really ‘knowing’ him or his game plan.

One of my favorite comments of the gathering was, “You know, one of Satan’s best schemes was to get himself drawn as a cartoon character!”  That statement really got me to thinking . . .

He was a murderer from the beginning, not holding to the truth, for there is no truth in him.  When he lies, he speaks his native language for he is a liar and the father of lies – John 8:44

The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy – John 10:10a

Satan himself masquerades as an angel of light – 2 Corinthians 11:14

Now that doesn’t sound like a cartoon character does it?!?

That cartoon character sure makes our enemy look pretty harmless, nothing to really fear.  What a genius scheme to make sin and temptation look fun, exciting, enticing, not such a big deal.  Remember the cartoons that showed some guy with the “good guy/angel” sitting on one shoulder and the “bad guy/devil” sitting on the other?   Well, just like in the cartoons, Satan has the world at his disposal to convince us that darkness is light.  

Satan is the master magician.  He pretends he is the bearer of fun, excitement, and beauty – light.  He changes dark into light, and if we fall into his dark pit, our true identity as a child of God is stolen.  He makes it easy for us to choose the wrong path.  He entices us to give in to sin, insinuating that it’s not a big deal (Dodds).  But it IS costly.

His is an extremely shrewd, well-planned scheme.  He knows every one of our weaknesses and vulnerabilities.  He flaunts our flaws and failures and limitations until we begin to question his strategies and fight back.  We can’t have one foot in the Kingdom of Light and the other in the Kingdom of Darkness. And just like in a physical battle, in this spiritual battle we have to know our enemy and his strategies.

  • He robs.  Just like we hear on the nightly news, thieves look for opportunity, for vulnerability, and the right moment to strike.  Get in, grab what looks valuable, and get out as quick as possible without getting caught.  The enemy does the exact same thing.  He looks for our vulnerabilities, weaknesses, any and every opportunity he can do damage to our Identity.
  • He lies.  The enemy masterfully twists the truth.  From the Garden of Eden to the lies he whispers into the minds and hearts of us all, Satan deceives with lies masquerading as truth.  His intention is to get our focus off of God and onto self and man.  If we believe the lies of the enemy, we will become desensitized to honesty.  This numbness triggers our human’s natural tendency to dishonesty.  We may exaggerate or embellish the truth.  If we aren’t aware of the enemy’s lies, we can become liars too.
  • He misrepresents.  You’re all that matters” are the words we are deceived with to distort our view of how our Creator made us.  We begin to believe God is withholding something from us, just like Eve did in the Garden.  God is never going to withhold anything from us that He knows will benefit us and is good for His children.  The fundamental purpose of the enemy is to destroy.  He never tells us he is going to destroy us, but he subtly tries to cause us to doubt the truth and the truth of God.  He tempts us to believe his way is better.  The enemy portrays sin as easy, fun, and necessary.
  • He accuses.  I can hear that accusing voice and see the pointing finger in my face.  Day and night he stands accusing us.  The accusations can come at any time of the day or night –  awakened in the middle of the night, getting ready for the day, even in the middle of trying to make a decision.  You’ve messed up again; you’re a liability to God.  You’re so selfish (or fill in the blank with any other attitude); you’re never going to change.  Why bother to spend time with God? You’re just going to wander away again, anyway.  After what you just did, do you really believe God still accepts and loves you?  Are you kidding me?  You, fearfully and wonderfully made?  Just remember, Satan’s voice will ALWAYS pull you away from your fellowship with God.  Know the voice of the enemy.
  • He seduces.  Satan does not have a relationship with The Creator and he doesn’t want us to have one either.  He seduces and entices our souls to doubt God.  We are now in a downward spiral and the more we go down this path, the less we walk in our True Identity.  Fear invades our life and we lose fellowship with the One who truly loves us.  We run and hide from our Abba Father.

Know your enemy.  Unlike your favorite sports team, Satan doesn’t have an extensive playbook.  He uses the exact same game plan each and every time he goes out for the attack.  From the fall of man in the Garden, the same schemes and tactics used on Eve are used on you and me. And unlike most of us, Satan never goes on vacation!

Know your enemy.  Know his name.  Know his character.  Know his voice. He is not a cartoon character.  He is real and he is full of the raw, dirty, evil things of this world.  He wants to normalize what we know is not for our ultimate good.  And know that he wants to steal you away from your Father. 

He comes to Steal.  Kill.  Destroy.

Yet, you also know the One who gives you Life – Abundant Life.   Run to Him.  It’s in His Presence and Righteousness we are equipped and empowered to refuse to be the enemy’s victim.  The enemy has been defeated by the Cross!

who am i? [part 2]

Here’s My Heart – David Crowder [Passion 2013]

I am found

I am Yours

I am loved

I’m made pure

I have life

I can breathe

I am healed

I am free 


YOU are strong

YOU are sure

YOU are life

YOU endure

YOU  are good, always true

YOU are light breaking through

YOU are more than enough

YOU are here

YOU are love

YOU are hope

YOU are grace

YOU‘RE all i have

YOU‘RE everything


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